the love of my life...

     A year ago I got asked a question, and today I'm still trying to decide what my answer will be.  There is someone in my life, someone I know since I was a little girl, someone who has known me all my life, my first and best friend.  That someone has been with me through it all, from the first day of school to the very moment I thought about committing suicide.  He has held my hand in happiness and sorrow, health and sickness, good times and not so good ones.  
     He has shown and proven His love for me all my life.  With each passing moment I grow more and more in love with Him.  He has quite a few followers, yet He stays with me and loves me with all His heart.  When the world, my family, and friends were too busy to sit down with me, He was the only one who didn't left my side for even a second.  He watched my sleep, my every step.  
     He's patient, noble, and kind.  He always has the right words, sweet words.  When the world accuses me, He hides me in His arms and whispers in my ear, "don't be afraid for I am here with you."  He greets me every morning and kisses me goodnight every night.  He says I love you when we're alone and yells it in the middle of a crowd.  
     In simple words, He's everything I ever asked for.  Why am I taking so long to give Him an answer?  The rest of my life depends on my decision, yet I am sure that if I say yes I will be the happiest woman that ever lived.  Perhaps I already know what my answer will be.  I think I knew since the first time I was asked...

     

     When I was four years old my aunt Martha asked me a simple question, "what do you want to be when you grow up?"  As a child, I didn't give it much thought, without second guessing myself I answered, "I'm going to be a nun."

     Who knew that fourteen years later I'd be asked the same question? Even more amazing is that I would actually start a journey to try and find the answer, and that this journey would bring me back to that same answer.

    Pray for me in hope that I will know what to do.